My Parents are Trying to Freeze Me to Death

It is pretty safe to say that I am still worried. It's very addictive as Kelly mentioned and I can quite agree with her about it. It's like a bag of potato chips. Once you have one, you have to have another and then another and another. Until the whole bag is gone. Then you buy a new bag. Yup. It is the very same when it comes to worrying. And I am the queen of worrying.

Today settled some of my bigger worries and it was wonderful to see that I was worried for nothing. Tomorrow I face the last of my big worries. Though, unlike the ones I had today, these don't flee as nicely and if they do, come back hard and fast. I do well at my externship site. I have been told this many times, but I just worry that I am not doing enough, not giving it my all. I worry that I am not good at what I do and will never become good at what I do. I worry all the time if I am doing the right thing and helping people in the way they need to be helped. It worries me terribly and I can't help but be worried. I love what I do, but at the same time it is still very nerve-wracking. I just hope I am cut out for this in the end. I love what I do and wouldn't want to see myself thrown back into looking for something else to do. I just think once I am settled in a job and have my own clients that I see regularly, it will be easier. I just hope I am right about that.

~Dragon Eyes~

Worries

I am worried.

No matter how many times I try to reassure myself, I can't help but be drawn back into worry. Everything that goes on around me worries me, but the things that worry me the most are those things that happen to be out of my control. I have talked to multiple people and no matter how much advice they give me and how much that tell me I shouldn't worry, I can help but to. And right now it is eating away at the back of my mind and the little voice of doubt in my head is louder than ever.

I don't know what to do. So I keep on worrying about everything. And It's eating me alive.

I am hoping tomorrow should settle some of my worries, at least one of the big ones. I hope with all my heart that those worries were stupid and not worth my time worrying about. But part of me (the little voice in my head, actually) whispers that my worries will come true. I hope that that isn't the case. If it is, I am not sure what to do in that case.

Tomorrow is just so far away, and until then my worry will continue to gnaw at me in silence...

~Dragon Eyes~