Top Gear Top 40 = Fantabulous

I have officially survived the weekend without my parents. Let's just say I am glad that they are finally home and everything can go back to normal. I did make a pretty banging stir fry, though. I was pretty impressed with my cooking skills this weekend. At least I know I can make food and survive on my own. It's just very quiet and very boring.

All I know is I feel like this weekend didn't have enough sleeping and relaxing in it. I was always running places and all Sean wanted to do was hang out with me every second of the day. There's only so much attention I can take in a three day span of time. The kid likes me so much and I just can't allow myself to be completely open towards him. It just feels like that I am going to give away too much of myself to a stranger or something. Yeah...horrible I know. I think I have problems. He even wanted to hang out today and I was like, eh not so much. We hung out Friday and Saturday. That's a lot. Now he's just going to have to wait until next Friday to see me again. I'm sorry but my weekdays are busy and I barely have enough time for myself much less anyone else. And on top of that, he wants to buy me jewelry. We aren't even official yet and he wants to buy me things. That seems a little much for me even though I really do want free jewelry. It just puts me in a tight place because then I feel obligated to give something back and I am SOOOO not ready for that kind of relationship yet. Or ever.

Well, I guess I should catch some Zzzs and sleep on everything. 6am is still going to suck no matter what.

I also think hanging out and chatting with Jocelyn about all of this is mos def a must.

~Dragon Eyes~

The Fight Never Ends

I have come to the conclusion that I am just not happy. I have probably been unhappy for a while now and just either didn't see it or refused to see it. I just feel as if I am going through all the motions like a robot, trying to evoke some sort of feeling and coming up with nothing at all. It's upsetting. It's almost as if I feel numb to everything around me.

My job, while I love it, isn't satisfying. It doesn't pay and I always feel like I am fighting a losing battle trying to get clients and keep clients. My hours are all over the place and I am never going to make a living and support myself on my own.

I feel like my life is never going to go anywhere. I want to do something I like and that I am good at but it just feels like I am trying to climb a mountain and instead of going forward I am simply running in place, using every amount of energy I have to move even half an inch forward.

And then there is Sean. He's nice and seems to like me so much, but once again I feel the bitter emptiness of indifference. He is the type of person who would go out of his way for me and I can't find any feelings about it. Jeff is happy I'm seeing someone but I secretly doubt that this is going to go anywhere. I hate it but I think that it might be the truth. It will crush him. I know it and that causes me to keep my mouth shut and keep trying.

It's terrible that we are supposed to hang out tonight and I feel nothing. I actually would rather stay home by myself and do nothing than go try to evoke any emotion towards him. I just don't know what to do.

I feel as if my heart has died. When I meet guys there is nothing. There is no spark and no interest. There is only flattery that they like me. Either that or annoyance, like what I show towards John who thinks he actually has a chance with me. I don't feel a spark and any excitement. There was only one time I felt that spark and that person destroyed me. I opened my heart up to him and he took it and played with it. Part of me died a long time ago when I severed him from my life and that part will never come back. I gave my heart to someone who crushed it. I will never let anyone do that to me again.

~Dragon Eyes~

That's Because You Double Fisted the Barrel!

After months of not climbing, Kelly, Molly, Kelsey and I decided to do a girls night and hit the walls with gusto. Okay, we were definitely out of practice, and half the routes we had been used to climbing were gone and had been replaced by new ones (most of which were way too tough for me to climb...go figure). All in all we didn't do too badly.

I love spending time with my friends. There is something about a friendship like that that makes everything in the world worthwhile. You know that they are always there for you when you need them most and that they wouldn't hesitate to tell you what you need to know even if the truth is hard to swallow sometimes. I don't have a large amount of very close friends, but I absolutely love these girls. There is something about all of us being together that makes me smile and makes the day/evening/week/month/year amazing. We can also be stupid around each other and no one is going to judge. Okay, we do judge, but its the type of harmless, joke judging that friends do to each other all the time. That's only because we love each other.

Maybe next time we climb I will really manage to double fist the barrel and not just half double it!

~Dragon Eyes~

Hockey Dates

Alright, so I am not one for dating or going on dates. It's just always too awkward and too nervous for words and I find the awkward silences at dinner unbearable. So tonight I got brave and went out with a kid I had met in college. We met freshmen year, but never really hung out all that much or talked all that much. I have no idea why since we have so much in common, but I guess things happen for a reason. That is my motto in life after all!

He picked me up at my house and we went to Hartford to meet up with his friends to go see the Hartford Whale hockey team play. He was absolutely thrilled that I loved hockey and even more so when I knew what the hell I was talking about when I was explaining things to another girl there. The game was incredible (the hockey was good and we had the most awesome box seat lounge thing courtesy of AMR). Afterwards I ended up going back to Sean's apartment in New Britain where his roommate and his roommate's girlfriend met up with us and we played some board games as well as the ball python. I am such a sucker for snakes!

I had a really good time tonight. I am not usually one for dates and attempting things with any new guy but this turned out rather awesome and I feel this might have a chance. Even Sean is not the most handsome guy in the world, his personality and goofiness and just being an awesome person overall seriously takes over. I am curious as to where this will go and his roommate and friends all seem to love me. Who knows. There also wasn't that awful empty feeling of indifference this time. There was curiosity and laughter and a sense that everything was okay; that it was safe. Only time will tell, and for once I am kind of excited and curious as to where things will go and what will happen down the road.

On a side note: Sean is also one of the few guys I've met who seems like a perfect gentleman. That's something special in this world now a days.

~Dragon Eyes~

Indifference

Yes, I am aware I am blogging really late or really early. Yes, I'm okay with this. Even though it is late I felt the strange need to write. This evening I actually went to Milford and met up with the usual group of usual suspects. Instead of going to Buffalo Wild Wings we ended up at TGI Friday's since Michelle's birthday was the next day and she chose where we ate. That was fine. As usually we had a good time. Afterwards I ended going back to Kyle's house where the two of us, well, fooled around. Now I'm not blogging to share that I had a great time. It's the after part that I am now going to discuss.

How did I feel about all this? I loved it. I had an enjoyable time and was very happy with the way the evening progressed. How did I feel after I said goodbye and drove home? Indifference. This is what startled me. Kyle and I had dated for a few months last year. We know each other pretty well. I was upset things had ended, but as with all things, I moved on and, well, okay, I was hurt but it was like ripping a bandaid off. It was over with and I moved on. Sure, I was jealous and angry at him for the whole Carly thing, but that was understandable about how the whole thing happened.

But why the indifference? I don't understand. Shouldn't I be excited that a boy I really care about is once again interested in me? Or is this one more attempt at me to close off my heart to yet another person? I can pretty much narrow it down to the fact that Kyle and I were together and are no longer for a reason and that a large part of me can't trust him not to do it again to me. Or I am suddenly becoming one of those people that gets satisfied and moves on, like a one night stand? The feeling of indifference bothers me. It shouldn't be there. There should be one definite feeling or another, not this, well okay that was nice, on to the next.

Conclusion: I really do have problems....

~Dragon Eyes~

I'll Clone Myself and Make a Sports Team

I have decided that I really need to be able to clone myself. Either that or I need more hours in the day. It's really hard being an adult and having to juggle what seems like twelve thousand different things. I have clients to see (usually in the morning and the evening), I work out in the afternoon, and in between everything else I have to see my horses. I do see friends here and there but it isn't the same. I was telling Kyle this, because he wants me to come back out on Thursday nights with everyone. This is when we talked about cloning and how he wants to clone himself and make a sports team. Honestly, why not?

Apparently I am being made to dress up for Halloween for work. Special. I think I am going to make it easy on myself and be an 80's fitness person or something. Gotta rock those leg warmers!!

QVC. Sometimes I really don't understand...

Tomorrow I am getting reassessed by Billy at Fitness Together, so I will get to see if I have improved from last time or not. I am really hoping I will improve because that will make me feel good about myself. Jeff tells me everyday I am perfect the way I am. I really don't believe him all the time. I have so much to work on still and so much to gain. It's just so hard sometimes. Sigh.

~Dragon Eyes~

Sometimes It Hurts Instead

Listening to the rain fall outside is one of the most soothing sounds. It's so quiet out that it makes me feel as if I am sitting in the middle of an uninhabited forest, far from the toils and troubles of people and civilization. Let's face it. Life is just a cruel place and we made it worse by civilizing everything.

I haven't written anything here in a long time. I haven't had the need to. Five months of a toil free, uneventful life. And now it all comes crashing back down in a mess of debris at my feet. Everything I worked so hard to make right seems to be sliding through my fingers like water. The harder I try to hold it together the faster it slips away.

Life is different now. I have a job. I work bizarre hours five times a week and make minimal money. I like my job, though. Everyday I get to meet new people and teach people how to exercise. I work out five days a week as well with my awesome workout buddies who push me to my limits. I have even been doing some boxing and beating the crap out of the heavy bags in the boxing room. You would think things would be good with all that. But it's not so.

Sometimes I wonder if I am the person to blame in all of this. Am I the one who has caused all this pain to myself?

Why do bad things happen to good people?

The seasons are changing again and I dread it. I can already feel the the suffocation of depression tightening it's grip around me, threatening to rip me to pieces. I fight it as best I can. I surround myself with friends, push myself harder in workouts and practically knock myself out with the boxing. But it just isn't enough. No matter how hard I work, I can feel that strangle hold. And a boy's stupidity doesn't help everything either.

What's the point in trying when all I get in the end is pain and disappointment. I am sick and tired of people being interested in me and then deciding I'm not worth it. Seriously, what do I do that makes people change their views so quickly. Is it just because I am being me? Is that it? I don't know, but it's what upsets me more than anything in the world. I just wish things could be different, but that will never be the way for me. I am just not meant to be happy with someone. It's an awful thing to say, but I am beginning to see how truthful it is. The only thing I can do is keep doing what I am doing and forget about everyone else. I would rather deal with the loneliness than the hurt any day of the week...

~Dragon Eyes~

My Parents are Trying to Freeze Me to Death

It is pretty safe to say that I am still worried. It's very addictive as Kelly mentioned and I can quite agree with her about it. It's like a bag of potato chips. Once you have one, you have to have another and then another and another. Until the whole bag is gone. Then you buy a new bag. Yup. It is the very same when it comes to worrying. And I am the queen of worrying.

Today settled some of my bigger worries and it was wonderful to see that I was worried for nothing. Tomorrow I face the last of my big worries. Though, unlike the ones I had today, these don't flee as nicely and if they do, come back hard and fast. I do well at my externship site. I have been told this many times, but I just worry that I am not doing enough, not giving it my all. I worry that I am not good at what I do and will never become good at what I do. I worry all the time if I am doing the right thing and helping people in the way they need to be helped. It worries me terribly and I can't help but be worried. I love what I do, but at the same time it is still very nerve-wracking. I just hope I am cut out for this in the end. I love what I do and wouldn't want to see myself thrown back into looking for something else to do. I just think once I am settled in a job and have my own clients that I see regularly, it will be easier. I just hope I am right about that.

~Dragon Eyes~

Worries

I am worried.

No matter how many times I try to reassure myself, I can't help but be drawn back into worry. Everything that goes on around me worries me, but the things that worry me the most are those things that happen to be out of my control. I have talked to multiple people and no matter how much advice they give me and how much that tell me I shouldn't worry, I can help but to. And right now it is eating away at the back of my mind and the little voice of doubt in my head is louder than ever.

I don't know what to do. So I keep on worrying about everything. And It's eating me alive.

I am hoping tomorrow should settle some of my worries, at least one of the big ones. I hope with all my heart that those worries were stupid and not worth my time worrying about. But part of me (the little voice in my head, actually) whispers that my worries will come true. I hope that that isn't the case. If it is, I am not sure what to do in that case.

Tomorrow is just so far away, and until then my worry will continue to gnaw at me in silence...

~Dragon Eyes~

The Floor is Decidedly Squeaking

I have made it through yet another week of externship. I really like it there and on Tuesday I get to start training some clients here and there! That is really exciting for me and it will make time there go by even faster. I really love being hands on and working with people, so this is going to be great! I really don't want to go to school for six hours tomorrow. There is only going to be four of us, and none of our other classmates will be there. It just makes me sad knowing that I have moved on and that I am going to be moving on to the real world before I know it.

The weather was so unsettled today. All of the severe weather that has been hanging in the south was starting to roll up the coast. We didn't get any of the severe tornado causing weather, but it rained on an off with thunder and lightning here and there. It was also beyond humid. It was so humid that the floor of the gym, which are pretty much rubber mats, were damp. Our shoes squeaked on them every time we walked. It was rather disconcerting.

Due to the weather Ruth decided it was too dangerous and canceled City Slickers for the day, so I ended up riding Grady instead of Beau. He was a good boy but both of Gail's German martingales were broken so I ended up borrowing Denise's for my ride. All I know is the City Slickers don't brush horses well. Grady had so much fur come off of him that it was like he was starting to shed all over again. Oh well.

This summer I am going to try and train like a triathlete. It will be a new and fun challenge for me to try out. I just have to find a bike...

~Dragon Eyes~

More Tape? You Are Starting to Look Like Rocky

Tonight was kind of a weird climbing night. The weather was icky and cloudy as well as more humid than anyone knew what to do with. We all struggled in our climbs and even routes that I completed before defeated me in places or all together. My wrist was being a complete pain as usual and it also didn't help that I ended up receiving two blisters. One on each hand in the same spot. Kind of special. I got those when I completed a tough route that I had tried once before and then failed. I was proud of that moment.

After that it was dinner. Mike ended up coming and meeting everyone and I ended up meeting Kelly's boy as well who was super nice. All in all a good night.

It also made my day when I bought the most amazing black heels ever at Target. A splurge but well worth it I think!

~Dragon Eyes~

I'm Going On a Date With My Poop Bag!

"Pucker up, Mr. Worm!"
~Kim~

I haven't blogged for a long ass time. I am quite sorry for this. And now that I am here, I am not really sure what I want to talk about. I ended up surviving the wild chaos of all my relatives being here, and had no time to really do anything but be with them. Mike ended up coming out with all of us on Saturday night and was a big hit with the family. I am really glad it went well.

I am currently listening to an acoustic version of So Cold by Breaking Benjamin and I think I just died happily. It was fabulous! So raw and emotional. I absolutely love Ben Burnley!!!

~Dragon Eyes~

Don't Laugh or You'll Drop the Weight on Your Head

It was weird being back at school with everyone. It was like we belonged there but at the same time we didn't belong there. Everyone was really excited to see us and it was nice to be back with the people I had been with for so long. But everything has to come to an end at some point. New journeys need to be made.

The gym with Mike and Jeff was good. I have been working hard and writing down everything we do so that I know where I'm at and where I've come from. The next thing to do is work on my diet. Mike is going to help me with that, but I am pretty worried about getting to the numbers that I need to get to. Why is it always so hard?

I never did ride my sister's horse today. The electric fence got fixed and he zapped himself and flipped out big time. Even well over an hour later he still had a very wounded look on his face. Oh well. Tomorrow we will just have to try again.

~Dragon Eyes~

Game of Thrones

Tonight was the premiere of Game of Thrones on HBO. Now I read the book ages and ages ago and absolutely loved them. Unfortunately I don't remember anything from them, but I was so excited to see that they turned it into a television series. And it got excellent reviews. Let's just say I wasn't disappointed in the least. It was amazing from start to finish and I seriously couldn't believe and hour had passed when it ended. It just grabbed you from the get go and refused to let go. I am so going to have to re read those books now.

Today was a pretty lazy day. I had my riding lesson in the morning and we ended up switching bits on Grady and he did really well with it. I was very happy. Our jumping course work was awful, but Gail was saying we haven't done that in so long. So I guess it is understandable. It was still frustrating though. Hopefully we can keep getting better. That's my goal in life.

Tomorrow I go to school to make up my class and I can't wait to see everyone there! It's going to be just like old times again!

~Dragon Eyes~

I Really Have to Pee!! ::Runs Wildly Away::

Having my Friday class at school today was seriously the strangest thing. It felt so normal to go to school as always and go to my room. It was also normal to see my teacher Carrie Ann and my classmates Ebony, Chino and Joann. What wasn't normal was the lack of our other classmates and the lack of noise in the building. But class went by fast and the five of us had a pretty good time catching up and chatting about our normal activities. We don't have class the next Friday due to Good Friday, so on Monday, the four of us are going back to school like usual to make up those hours and get them out of the way. It's going to be awesome seeing everyone and surprising those that have no idea we are going to be there!

After that I went to the gym with Jeff and Mike and was put through a beyond grueling workout for legs. Both Mike and Jeff were trying hard not to puke while I just whimpered as I tried to stretch out dying muscles. Afterward, Jeff treated all of us to a protein shake and then I bolted to the bathroom because between all the water I drank and the shake, I had to pee!!! So before either of them had a chance to say anything, I had bolted to the bathroom.

I am supposed to spend the evening with Mike for dinner and movies and who knows what else!

~Dragon Eyes~

Aren't There Only Two in the Bottom Three??

My dad's brilliant comment about American Idol tonight. My mom and I both stared at him for a few moments before he figured out what he said. It was hysterical!

I am so tired, but I made it through my very first week at my externship site and had a blast. I have gotten to the gym four days in a row now and am going tomorrow after my first Friday class. It's really going to be weird going to school but not seeing everyone I am used to seeing. It will be sad in a lot of ways, but at least I will get to see Ebony, Joann and Chino. They all bring brightness to my life. It still will be weird. I am thinking of going to visit everyone at school on Monday. It would be a happy surprise and I think Aylin would be the happiest person on earth. She's one of the ones I miss the most. We just had such good times together and our personalities meshed really well.

Starting on Monday Mike and I are going to start recording workouts and measurements so that we can see if we are making progress or not. I kind of had a bit of a loss of will tonight and just felt like nothing I did was working and that I was stuck in a rut. Don't get me wrong, I still feel that way, but knowing that we are going to work together and try and figure it all out really helps. It will be nice to have some tangible evidence in my hands. Oh how I need it right now. Tomorrow I am going to put the pedal to the metal at the gym and push my body to the very limits. And then I'll get to spend the evening with Mike. I really can't wait for that.

Until tomorrow.

~Dragon Eyes~

Did You Just Punch Out the Wall???

Sorry for the failure in blogging. I am kind of sleepy and tipsy at the moment. That's what happens when you wake up at 5am. It's really an awful time to get up. It's dark and cold and the birds are still asleep. It's even worse if it's rainy like it was today. Then it's even darker. It also didn't help that I got like 3 hours of sleep and woke up in pure terror at 2am due to thunder (which I though was part of my zombie Apocalypse dream). Not cool at all. I guess that's what happens when you read about zombies right before bed.

My externship site is going well. I really like it a lot. Right now I am doing a butt load of observing, but I should be getting into other stuff as well that will hopefully break up the monotony, but I actually don't mind. I stay awake and I love the clients. So it's all good. It also is a pretty good indicator that I love what I am doing. Especially when I am just itching to train again.

Tonight was a climbing night. I did pretty darn well for myself. I conquered a route that I had attempted and failed before and even conquered the barrel. This time a lot faster than before! I am getting technique down a lot better and faster and things are just getting easier in general. I did manage to punch the wall by accident and give myself bloody knuckles and a sore right hand. I still can't figure out how I managed to do it. Oh well.

On a more important note, Mike and I finally decided to make our relationship official. I am really happy for this and it just feels right. I can't even explain the feeling, but I feel like I'm where I should be or something. :)

~Dragon Eyes~

That's It! I'm Nuking My Room!!!

So for recap, my date yesterday went very well. I was seriously nervous for no reason. Mike came and picked me up and then we drove to Manchester and went to the Texas Road House for dinner. They had amazing food and I love food, so when I have good food and good company, I am not so nervous anymore. After dinner we went back to his condo for some movies and a little over the clothes play as well as some guitar hero. He was really impressed with how well I could play guitar hero. Hey, I have skills and I'm a girl! After that I was driven home where I promptly passed out.

Today was a lazy day and every now and then you need one. I decided not to go to the barn and let my poor horse actually get a day off from riding so I stayed home and attempted to tackle the mess that is my room. Now that was a project and a half. I have decided I have too much crap and am just going to nuke my room and start over. That's really all I think I can do with it at this point. Oh well. I guess I will still have to work hard on it if the relatives are coming up for Easter. Otherwise they won't have a place to stay....or sleep....

Tomorrow is supposed to be 70 degrees. And since my car is currently at the Honda dealer for servicing, I am stuck at home. So I think, if it's warm enough, I will sit outside on a towel and soak up some rays. I need to get a head start on my tan so I don't completely burn this summer. And why not do it on a beautiful day that I have off? Then it will be off to the gym for me, thanks to my mom dropping me off, to work out with Mike as usual.

Tomorrow is going to be so strange not getting up....

~Dragon Eyes~

I'm Giving Birth to Piranhas!!!

I apologize again for the lack of blogging yesterday. I was too comfortable curled up in bed with my book and my cell phone to get up, walk over to my computer and blog. Yeah. I am that kind of lazy person.

And I am pretty much being mad lazy again tonight. Even though I am blogging, I really don't want to be blogging right now. I am just not feeling into it at the moment. It's probably due to the fact that I really don't have all that much to say about today. I went to the gym early with Mike and then came home, ate food, watched movies (and slept through part of them), and texted Mike. That was pretty much it.

Tomorrow is our first date together and he is actually coming to my house to pick me up. I am mad nervous about the whole thing. I dunno why I am nervous or why I should be nervous. I guess it has to do with the entire going out to dinner/dating thing. I am just not good at dating and stuff. Mike just laughs and thinks I am adorable. At least he doesn't mind my craziness!

~Dragon Eyes~

Hello, Mr. Snake! Let me Kiss Your Face!

Tonight I went to the rock gym with Brendan. Molly is on vacation in Florida so it was just the two of us this week. The problem we ran into was that he is certified to belay and I am not, which means he wouldn't have any time to climb. So I ended up getting certified to belay. When we got to the gym, there really wasn't anyone there so we were able to go in the back room and he gave me a crash course in how to belay and even let me do it once before I went and told the guy that I wanted to get tested. It was seriously the most nerve-wracking thing ever having someone watch every move you make. It didn't help that this was like the second time I was ever going to be belaying someone. But I did great and the guy passed me! I didn't even have to pay the three dollars for the test so that was a plus. Then Brendan and I got to work climbing. It was a good time but it was hard when neither of us really got any big rest breaks so we tired out. Then it was off to dinner. It was a lot of fun. We carpooled and chatted about all kinds of things and things that I never thought I would be comfortable talking to a guy, but I'm comfortable around Brendan and we both agreed that it was good to be comfortable around friends. We are just mad goofy around each other.

Some memorable quotes of the evening:

"Hello, Mr. Snake! Let me kiss your face!" (on outdoor climbing with various wildlife)

"Strong arms! Good for lifting babies and carrying roasts!"
"Wait, lifting babies?"
"Yes! This is my view on children. We carry the roasts and lift the babies. Into the oven!"
Oh no! Babies in the oven!"
"We are having white meat for dinner!!"

Tomorrow is my final day of regular class at Branford Hall in the PFT program. It's going to be rather bittersweet. I can already tell you that. I am excited to move on to better things, but at the same time I am afraid of the unknown and sad to walk away from so many amazing classmates. I am going to see a lot of them still because we have made friendships and connections that are probably going to last through our lifetimes. And that is something I am so happy for. It's going to be hard to move on, but it many ways it will always be like I never left. And I think I am finally ready for it.

~Dragon Eyes~

She Energetically Assaulted Me!

I really am being really bad with blogging lately. Probably because I have been studying my socks off for finals and I am a little insane. It's all good, though, because here I am! Back and ready for some fun.

I forgot to put this down into my blog last night, but me and Mike ended out engagement and that's when it came out about us possibly starting our own relationship because we just click so well, have a lot in common, can communicate to each other like normal people, etc, etc. Sure there is the age difference. I am willing to overlook it. Mike took a little longer to decide that age really doesn't matter. It just matters who you are with and if that person makes you happy. I think Jeff kind of told Mike that he was being stupid about it all and to grab me before someone else came along and did.

The two of us are now planning to have an official date Saturday night. I am now mos def nervous even though I am comfortable around Mike. Dates always make me hyper. I guess this is why I don't ever do much dating.

Two more days of school to go...

~Dragon Eyes~

Wrestlemania Entertainment Blue Balls

So a lot has gone on since I blogged last and I feel like a terrible person, but it's late so I am going to make it all quick because I need to pass out. Friday was April Fools Day and Mike and I decided to play a prank on everyone. So the two of us got "engaged" on facebook. When we went to the gym, we took pictures and he put them in an album on his facebook called "Me and the Little Lady." Yup. We were that creative. I even got a fake ring.

Today was wrestlemania and Mike was hosting it at his parents house and invited me to meet all of his friends even though they all finally guessed that it was a hoax. I had a great time with him and everyone there. I am really glad I decided to come. While we were there he made it very clear to me that our age difference was no longer a problem. He also made that kind of obvious last night when he was texting me when I was tipsy (I had spent the evening out with Jeanette). After wrestlemania ended with a disappointment fail from AT&T uverse, he walked me out to me car where we chatted for a bit. They I got a pretty kick ass hug and a just as kick ass first kiss from him as well. I have a feeling that our relationship is turning a corner, but I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens.

Tomorrow starts my last week of school. I am so sad it's not even funny...

~Dragon Eyes~

You Can Read with a Spanish Accent Too!!

Hooked on Chino: You can learn to read with a Spanish accent too!

Well today started off better only to end in shambles, but that seems to be the way with doxycycline. I started off the day feeling relatively okay. I ate breakfast and my snack at school and was even given some probiotics from my classmate to take which also helped me. Then came lunch. That was like torture and then after that it was off and on whether I felt good or didn't feel good.

The gym was tough to start because I felt like major shit to start, but once I got lifting and Mike got me going I did better. As I drove to the barn I just started to feel worse and worse. By the time I got to the barn I felt awful and still somehow managed to get on my horse for a bit. By the time I was almost home I felt like something (the alien from the movie Aliens) was trying to escape from my stomach cavity. Dinner was torture to get down and then I felt even worse. Took more probiotics and curled up in bed with Family Guy and Aliens, while texting back and forth with Mike. He always knows how to make me feel even the least bit better. Tomorrow we are supposed to be destroying ourselves at the gym again. I cannot wait. I should also (hopefully) be feeling better since I am stopping the doxycycline and calling the doctor tomorrow to tell them how shitty this drug was.

Now I think I will go to bed. Bed sounds wonderful right now.

There better not be snow on the ground in the morning. I think we are done with this stuff by now. And I really do think Global Warming is a myth. After this year it can't possibly be a reality!

~Dragon Eyes~

Roberto PitterPatterPuck

Today was not a good day. No. Not at all. The doxycycline made me sick whenever I ate food. No matter what I managed to get down my throat my stomach refused to agree with it. I never threw anything up, but my body still was FAR from happy. It was probably the worst today than it has been yet. I am hoping this is all short lived and my body will figure out what the hell is going on with it soon. Because this is not cool. Not cool.

On a brighter note, I haven't had any more breakouts since starting on this stuff. That's always an improvement. I am hoping my face will settle out so this doxycycline stuff can go far away.

Climbing went well tonight even though the three of us were all dealing with our own issues, so none of us were the best of company. I climbed a bunch a 7s and a few new ones. I even conquered the barrel once again and got 2/3 of the way up a really sucky 7 on the slab. By that point I had been doing really well. And then we went to dinner and I put food into my mouth. That was the end of that. I feel nasty again. Just the thought of food makes me want to gag...

I hope tomorrow is better...

~Dragon Eyes~

Ischemia, Angina and Infarction

Doxycycline is seriously the WORST antibiotic known to this world. It's number one side affect is gastrointestinal distress. Well, they weren't lying, that's for sure. I just feel plain awful. Anything I eat seems to sit like a rock in my stomach. I barely ate lunch today because I just felt plain awful. It's basically come to stuffing food down my throat because I need to power my engine of a body. On the brighter side I might reach my weight goal by not eating. It's such an unhealthy way to do it, but it could happen. I am hoping my body adjusts to this stuff soon because this sucks something fierce. I started taking it with dinner instead of lunch. I am not sure if this made an ounce of difference but I am willing to give it a shot.

On the brighter side, I did go to the gym and worked out with Mike. It makes me happy to work out with him and to just be with him. I didn't feel great during my time at the gym but my determination doesn't allow for me to be sickly or weak. I just gave in at the barn when I couldn't ride my horse anymore because my stomach hurt. Oh well. I also felt better throughout the evening and even managed to get some dinner down into my system. Now I feel awful...but that was kind of a given...

Anyways, I think I am going to crash or something and see if I feel any better in the morning. I really hope so...

~Dragon Eyes~

From the Bottom of My Boob

Today was my mom's birthday. I was very ingenious and made a cake, bought some really pretty tulips and then made chocolate covered strawberries. I was very proud of all my cooking skills this weekend. I am usually very crazy in the kitchen and things have a tendency to burn, but this time around I outdid myself.

My horse wasn't lame after his lesson yesterday, which was awesome and I helped Gail and the others at the barn create a new round pen in the indoor ring. Gail has been making her own round pen to lunge horses in out of poles, cones and flower boxes. Unfortunately it has been taking up quite a bit of the ring. Today we ended up taking two of the stalls in the indoor ring and making them into a round pen. We had to borrow a couple of the panels from the outdoor ring, but it is nice and enclosed and a much better place to work horses since there is no escape for them once inside the round pen. We were all pretty proud of the accomplishment and Gail seems excited to be able to try it out tomorrow.

Last night I never did blog and I was sorry for not doing it, but I went out to Denny's with Jocelyn and then we went back to her place for some phase ten and much needed catching up. I always have a great time with her and am so glad that we are still amazing friends after all these years. We talked about the usual: her boyfriend, boys, Christian's friends, and anything else that pops into our minds. I think one of the best parts of the night was finding an Ad Libs app on our cell phones. I don't think the two of us could stop laughing. Tears were flowing at some points because it was just too damn funny. Thus, from the bottom of my boob!!

~Dragon Eyes~

It's Like Diabetes in a Pot!

Well, I have been pretty bad with blogging as of late, haven't I. I seriously can remember the last time I wrote something down here. Oops. Oh well. I'll try to recap everything that has gone on this week.

My climbing harness finally came and I was able to climb in it to try it out. It was amazing! So much better than having to deal with all the rental ones which were like seatbelts and mad uncomfortable. I was really happy with how it fit and how it worked with climbing. I climbed two 7s in a row as well as a previously unclimbed 7. I also conquered the 6 on the barrel. It was a very poor climb and I struggled non stop but I made it up and was really proud of how strong I was. I am going to try it again next time and work on cleaning it up a little bit better. Kris actually came climbing, but as always just show such little interest in me. Oh well. We weren't good for each other anyways and he was starting to bore me. On to the next one!

Chino is still trying to hook me up with Logun, but Logun has a girlfriend now, so I really think Chino should start minding his own business on that front. Besides, he called me ugly in class on Monday, so he hasn't batted well with me. I still love him, though. There is just something about Chino that you can't help but love.

I have also been working out a lot with Mike. Every Tuesday and Thursday after school we work out and he has put me through some of the most intense things ever, things that I would never have thought I could do. But there he is pushing me along and showing me how truly strong I am. And I love working out with him. It's just something I can't put into words. Today we even worked out again today and he put me through the probably the hardest leg workout of my life. I probably won't be able to walk tomorrow, but I know it will be all worth it. Everything will be worth it.

I also re-dyed my hair today. I now have blond highlights that mingle with my real hair color and the red highlights that are still floating around. No lie, it looks sexy as hell and I can't wait to shock everyone at school with the radical change.

On a side note: When Jillian Michaels (aka the most bad ass woman around) cries, I bawl my frigging eyes out.

~Dragon Eyes~

It's All Fun Until Somone Gets Hit With a Chair

Cake Boss made a wrestling cake!! And when it comes to wrestling of any sort, its all fun and games until someone gets hit with a chair. Or maybe that applies to life in general! Getting hit with a chair is really no fun at all.

Well, yesterday was the first day of spring some gorgeous weather and today it snowed. How the hell does that work? Your guess is as good as mine. Oh well. It's supposed to be sunny tomorrow! And then it's supposed to snow again. Really? I thought we were done with all this white crap. Apparently, Mother Nature has something else in store for us.

Today was a long and painful day, but tomorrow will be better. It will be. Positive attitude. I am going to go to the gym and train hard. I will not be in pain tomorrow from stupid girly problems and I am going to chuck the crutch that I have with my fear of my back injury out the window. And hopefully, with a little help, I will never use it again. Hopefully. That's my plan at least. I have let that run my life for the last year and a half or more and finally I need to let it go so I can take back my life and get past this bump in the road that I just haven't been able to get past.

~Dragon Eyes~

Leprechaun Poop

Happy St. Patty's Day!!!

I love this holiday. It's such an excuse to be Irish even if you aren't. It's fun to be other nationalities. It's also an excuse to drink heavily. Though, I didn't take part in that tonight. I didn't have anyone to go with and wasn't really feeling it. I like chill nights at home doing nothing.

The party at school was great and my cupcakes were a great hit. Then I ended up going to the gym for a kick ass workout with Mike and then went and got on my horse who seemed pretty sound. That was pretty good since I have been dying to ride him all week. He then lost about six pounds worth of fur. I can't wait until he is all shedded out and I don't have to deal with walking around looking like a white fur ball! It's just so itchy!!

I am just glad tomorrow is Friday and I have a fully open day. Well mostly, but it's better than six hours of school in the morning to chew up my day. I am going to get to the gym, pack for NJ and eventually have a riding lesson at 430pm before heading out to the Garden State for some relaxation(?). Relaxation usually doesn't happen...

~Dragon Eyes~

Leaving?? Where Are You Going??

St Patty's day is tomorrow and so is our epic Luck of the Irish party in out Special Populations class. Needless to say we are all wicked excited for some food and fun. I ended up making some pretty good chocolate Guinness cupcakes with green buttercream frosting. Let's just say I am pretty proud of myself and my rudimentary cooking skills. They even have green sprinkles on them for an added touch. I think they are going to be a good hit.

After that I am going to the gym with Mike to beat my shoulders up. I really do enjoy working out with him. He is a great guy and pretty funny. I like people like that. It's also cool for me to try new things and have a workout buddy. I work better when I am with someone else. I am just weird or something. It will be a lot of fun. We exchanged numbers this afternoon and we have been kind of texting each other back and forth all day. What is it with me and Mikes anyways?? Oh well.

Well I guess I should make my bed and actually go to bed and get some sleep since I am wicked tired. But I have been like that all week.

~Dragon Eyes~

The Ass Kicking Muscles

According to Shawn, the Quad muscles are the ass kicking muscles because those are the muscles you use when you kick someone in the ass. She made me laugh so hard over that! She was doing much better today since she finally got to hear from her daughter who is currently in Japan with her boyfriend who is at a naval base there.

The day was rolling along as usual. Nothing super exciting. We were on our first break for the second half of the day when I looked up and saw none other than Logun. I haven't seen him in a whole now and there he was. Looking just as good as always. He stayed for a bit and talked, quite a bit to me before leaving. That's when the entire class turned and looked at me and went, he was so here to see you. Even Carrie Ann went over to where he had been standing to mimic his body posture. It was turned towards me, and even when he had been speaking to others and not me, he had his body angled towards mine. And it sounds like I might go work out with him early on Friday. We will see what happens with that one. Otherwise I will go on my own and enjoy.

Then I drove like a wild woman to Avon for my interview at Fitness Together. It went really well and I really liked the place and the people and they seemed to really like me. So that is where my internship is going to be for the next 10 weeks! Well starting April 11th!!

After that is was on to rock climbing. I got to break in my new shoes and chalk bag and went to town in the bouldering cave and on the big walls. Me and Kelly were climbing up 6's and 7's like pros. Okay, maybe not pros, but the two of us are definitely moving up the ranks each week! And that is mad exciting for both of us. I am hoping to break in a new harness next time. Which actually might be on Friday, but who knows.

Otherwise, life moves along the same. Though I did tell Molly and Kelly that I think me and Kris aren't right for each other. They both thought it was perfectly okay, and Molly even said, even though she is Kris's friend, that I could do better. So I am going to follow that and see where things go. Maybe me and Logun will start something. Anything can happen I guess!!

~Dragon Eyes~

The Pirates Don't Eat the Tourists

Daylight savings time. While it is now lighter in the evenings, we lost an hour of sleep and I am all sorts of messed up. Not to mention tired. This is what happens when you come home at 4am. Bleck. Oh well, it's something I am pretty used to by now. This week will probably be long but then it will be over and I can sleep and hopefully plan on doing nothing else. Works for me.

Friday I ended up going out with Kathleen and Taylor to Middletown where we went to Eli's and got a drink and some food. It was a good time. I haven't spent much time with Taylor before then. He is an MT student at school. He is really a pretty cool guy and had a blast with us. I really love hanging out with Kathleen. We are just so goofy together! Unfortunately, she is having issues with her boyfriend Phil. I wonder if those have resolved slightly or she is still confused.

On Saturday I ended up hanging out with Kris and his friends. That was an interesting experience. They are definitely people I would choose not to hang out with. I mean, Steph and Greg were pretty cool, but the others were just kind of...strange. And pot heads. Alcoholics and pot heads. It just wasn't my type of scene I guess.

It also throws into question about me and Kris. The more I hang out with him, the more I can see how the two of us are not really right for each other. We just have so much that's not in common and that doesn't really fly for me. I like hanging out with him and watching movies and such, but I think friends is where we are going to stay. Unfortunately, his attachment is greater than mine. Sigh. Always the way. At least we aren't in any type of relationship. That should make things a little easier. Still it doesn't make me feel any better about it all. Another chance with a guy and yet another dud. I am really sick of not finding anyone decent. Is it me??

~Dragon Eyes~

I Think I Just Pooped My Spleen

The school week is over for me and I am happier than ever. It's been a long week. But there are a lot of good things that came out of the week. And today for that matter. I am all set up for an interview/meet and greet for my externship site. So that's really exciting. I am doing well in my classes and have been working out in new and different ways thanks to Mike. Sexy body here I come!! And I am going out with Aylin, Kathleen and Karen tomorrow night for lovely dancing time! I even purchased my climbing harness!

Then I went to the barn and everything went kind of wild. It ended well, but it was still kind of crazy. Grady was lame, so I lunged his goofy butt for a bit. Grace was riding Beau, who was actually being a pretty good boy. She ended up finishing with him and brought him back into his stall to untack him. Then I look up and he was running over Grace, running out of his stall bridleless and then bolted down the aisle. He then turned around and bolted down the other way and out the door. He was eventually cornered and caught in the other barn. He suffered no ill effects from the whole ordeal. His bridle ended up in pieces. Just wonderful. At least it was just the headstall that died. The reins, bit and flash noseband survived the ordeal amazingly enough. Tomorrow I got to go buy a new one. At least leather breaks!

Belle also got loose during the ordeal but at least it was in the indoor ring, though it didn't help that Jenny and me were both standing on the ground with our horses with Bell running like a wild thing. At least she was also caught quick and no one was the worse for wear. Poor Grace felt terrible about the bridle, but how was she supposed to know what Beau was going to do? At least it broke and not the horse. She is mos def getting compensated for everything she's had to deal with!

I am exhausted. Tomorrow I am going to run around like a freak, but it's okay. I have to get a new bridle, then try and find my externship site so I know where it is, maybe go to the gym, maybe go to the barn, and maybe go to EMS to look at climbing shoes because I am tired of renting strange ones. Who knows what is going to go.

~Dragon Eyes~

Freaking Out!!!!

Today I went to the career development people at Branford Hall to talk about externship sites, since I am going out in about four weeks now. I told them I was pretty open to going just about anywhere and that's when Marika mentioned that there was a place in Avon that was interested in taking students for externship as well as looking to hire. Sweet! So I got the information, tweaked my resume and then called Billy Pratt who is the head trainer at Fitness Together. We talked for a while and he seemed really interested in having me and the more I heard about the place the more I wanted to go there. It is only a gym for one on one personal training. That's it. Clients come there to work one on one without the distractions of the bigger gyms. So cool!!! Tomorrow Marika is going to talk with Billy Pratt and work on setting up an interview and everything! I am super excited about all of this!

Climbing tonight went well. I am starting to get stronger and I am climbing more delicately instead of being swarthy and muscling my way up the wall. Slowly but surely. I found the harness I want to get online. I think I am going to get it and then work on shoes this Friday with Kelly and possibly Molly. It is going to be all sorts of fun!

Time to go collapse somewhere. Working out tomorrow hardcore and then trying to put my slightly broken pony back together.

~Dragon Eyes~

Your Glutes Look Great in Those Pants

My classmate Jared sent me a text message in respond to my Facebook status this evening about how I will not let myself see myself as weak. He told me I wasn't week and such which I thought was very cute. Then the next text message made me laugh and blush all at the same time. He told me my Sluts looked great in my pants and he was afraid I would catch him looking, which he did throughout the day. I was blown away but I will admit that those old navy athletic pants really did make me look hot!

~Dragon Eyes~

I Can Buy Another Goldfish. A Kid? Not So Much.

My classmate Aylin stated that she didn't want kids today. She then proceeded to say that she would rather have a goldfish because if it died she could buy a new one. Buying a new kid wasn't an option. I just cracked up laughing forever. It was just too funny. The whole day was funny in general. Colleen makes kinesiology hysterical to start with and we were just all riled up for Carrie Ann's class that it was just insane. I don't know how many times Shawn smacked Chino on the back of the head. Every time I turned around she had smacked him. We just laughed. There was nothing else to do at that point.

I also ended up going into school slightly earlier and ended up getting in a pretty good half hour workout with Kathleen. The two of us are going to try and keep doing that because we both feel as if we have been slacking on that department as of late. And I think Chino said he was going to train us in the mornings now because Miss Thing pretty much screwed herself out of training by not showing up three days in a row and that was something that Chino told her would be a deal breaker. We will see if he holds that up tomorrow. She better not come. She's just an annoyance.

After school I ended up going to Gold's to pretty much bust out an intense resistance workout. I did supersets on my own for a while and was really feeling it. That's when my classmate Mike came over and I ended up working out with him in the part of the gym that I never venture into because the guys are all big and scary there. It wasn't so bad once I wandered around with him and actually had a purpose. We chatted about a little bit of everything and it was nice to get to know someone new a little bit better. Besides I got all the juicy gossip on the new students and Miss Thing who he also hates with a bitter passion. I like working out with someone. They push me more than I can ever push myself. It's not that I don't like pushing myself. It's just that I doubt myself and don't think I can. I just have a strong fear of weakness and failure that I do things I know for a fact I will succeed at. I guess I need to work on that a little bit.

Tomorrow I am going to once again work out in the morning and then train in the afternoon. I might go climbing tomorrow as well. I haven't figured that out yet. I'll probably leave Molly a message and see what's up.

Off to bed for now.

~Dragon Eyes~

Diane Abetes and Dr. Ben Dover

The start of a new semester and there is still never a dull moment. We all know exactly how to make light of everything and keep the laughter rolling. It is one of the things that I will never forget once I leave. The memories and friendships that I made there will always live on.

The new students seem pretty cool. Quiet but cool. That might change as we get to know them, but so far I don't have any huge objections to them. I am still training the girls and am having a blast doing it. I am going to miss them when I leave. I have grown so much with them since I first started and I can see it in the exercises I pick, the variety and my intensity and fearlessness. It's going to be different with my own clients and especially one on one, but it will be okay, because I know I can do it. I'm good at it and I love it. That's what matters the most.

Tomorrow I am going to work out with Aylin and Kathleen in the morning and try to ignore Miss Thing, which gets easier, because she is worth nothing. Lower than the dirt I walk on. So I am strong in that aspect by ignoring her completely. It works for me. Then I will go to the gym and workout hardcore there, because I have a feeling this weigh in isn't going to be pleasant at all. I guess that's life. I still look good and feel great so that's what matters. And who knows. Maybe I'll actually see Logun at the gym tomorrow. We'll just have to see.

And I am obsessed with this country song, Chances Are. Just phenomenal.

~Dragon Eyes~

You Talk and You Poop Candy

Tomorrow is the start of a new semester. And my last semester before extern. Wow. Where did all the time go?? I have no idea and I really am going to be sad when it's over, but that means I will be able to get certified and get a job and then have money. I am really tired of not having money. Soon enough I won't have to worry anymore. I hope.

Today was rainy and lazy. I got to see my horse but didn't really do much with him since he was getting the day off. I did go to Staples and get really kick ass sharpie pens that don't bleed through paper. They have become my new editing pens for my writing. I printed off the first five chapters of one of my stories. It ended up being 53 pages and now I am editing. I've done 5 pages so far and I am feeling pretty good about it all. I am excited to get myself into the writing mode again. I have missed it a lot. I am just going to work on a few pages at a time and let everything just kind of come together. That's all I can do, right??

I never mentioned that my friend Abby had her baby this weekend! She is gorgeous and I am so happy for her and her husband. It's going to be hard at first, but I know that they will be great parents!

~Dragon Eyes~

They're Virtual so Technically They Aren't Here

Last night I ended up getting dinner and drinks with Jeanette. Now, I haven't seen her in a while. At least a month or so and she was curious if I wanted to do something with her. Since I didn't and my mom was driving me up a wall I decided to go out. We got dinner at the Elbow Room in West Hartford and I seriously got the best mac and cheese EVER! I would so go back and get more. If I could I would eat mac and cheese every single day for the rest of my life. That is how much I love it. People can make fun of me all they want, but it won't stop me from loving it. This is why I am so five years old!

After dinner we went to Shish Ka Bob for drinks. It's our usual spot and the bartenders know us. How do I know this? They never card us anymore. They know us. It's actually pretty sweet because I am always asking them for suggestions for things to drink. And so far they have come through. The best drink I've gotten there so far is a Huckleberry Cran Lemonade. Or at least I think it was called that. It was amazing. And I am so going to get another one of those the next time I'm there.

Jeanette and I had a good time for a long while and then it started to get busier and she started chatting with people. The best group of the night were the virtual people. These fifteen or so people all met online and decided to meet in person for drinks. They all had name tags to boot. And the bartender had to state that since they were virtual internet people that they techincally were not there. They laughed and agreed with him. Oh, they were a good group. Eventually they left and a new group replaced them and they took a liking to Jeanette. I was rather glad that Alex ended up showing up so I could converse with him while Jeanette had fun with her new friends.

Eventually, the bar closed and we were all sent on our way. Alex agreed to drive me back to my car in the garage and so we split from Jeanette. Then the two of us decided to park somewhere else in West Hartford center and went walking all over the place, chatting. I miss chatting with him and seeing him all the time. He really is one of my best friends. We just have so much in common. We actually both agree that we are the same person just opposite sex. I can see it. Unfortunately all good things have to come to an end and it was time to go home.

Today has been pretty low key. Had a good lesson on Grady and then did a whole butt load of cross stitching. Even had an hour long skype conversation with Fabio. I really am going to miss him now that he is done with school and heading out into the real world. It will be weird, but that's why keeping in touch is the most important thing. There is no way I am going to lose the friendships that I have gained at school.

Well, I guess I am going to hang around and do stuff and maybe print a hard copy of one of my stories for editing purposes.

Oh, on another note. One year ago today my old computer was stolen from my locked room in my dorm. It's been a long time since then and much has happened, but I am glad to say it is all for the better.

~Dragon Eyes~

I Conquered the Crack!!!

Today I managed to make it to climbing and climbed a tough course with a giant crack where you had to stick your right hand/arm and right foot into it all the way up in order to make it to the top. I have seen others do it as well as Molly and always wanted to try and do it. Tonight I got my chance and it was seriously super fun! I have some pretty sweet battle wounds on my hand, but it was so worth it.

Molly and Brendan ended up leaving early to go shooting so I spent my time with Brian. Mostly in the bouldering cave where he worked with me on technique. It was hard but I was definitely getting better at everything. It is still going to take a lot of work, but I am not going to give up easily.

I think this Saturday I am going to go and try and get a harness and shoes of my own so I don't have to keep renting them. It would be so much easier. And cheaper. I'll have to see what I can find for decent prices.

After that we all went out to dinner and pretty much had a farewell dinner for Brian, who is moving to Massachusetts this weekend. It's going to be weird having him gone, but we are all going to have to visit him and if I get really good at 7 and 8 climbing courses I can go with him to a rock climbing gym up in Mass that is phenomenal. That would be epic. I just have to keep working in my technique and strength as well as climbing like a girl. Delicate and graceful as well as quiet is the mark of a good climber.

Well, I am off to bed. Tomorrow is the last day of the semester and I cannot wait. And we will see if I see Logun at the gym tomorrow.

~Dragon Eyes~

I Think the Washing Machine is Demonic...

The washing machine is eating my clothes. And my mom's clothes. Not cool. I liked the sweatshirt it ate. Sure, the zipper had its issues but it was an awesome sweatshirt. It's still usable but the bottom of it looks like someone got hungry and decided to snack on it. Still. Not cool. It's demonic. And now I don't trust it with my clothes...

I am currently very burnt out. I have two finals tomorrow. The fitness one is going to be a piece of cake. I could do it in my sleep. The Kinesiology one is going to be a different story. It is on every single one of the muscles we learned since the beginning of the semester. Surprisingly, I know them decently, but it is still going to be a pain in the ass and I am looking forward to it being done and over with. Then I can relax and just do nothing. Until the new semester starts on Monday!

Since today was a Tuesday and there was nothing huge on my agenda I decided to go to the gym to kick my rear into gear. And of course, sitting in class my teacher asked me about how things with Logun were going and pretty much made me text him right on the spot. In class. That's just how cool my teacher is! So I told him I was going to the gym and eventually got a response back saying he was going to go home at around 1:30pm to eat and then he would come back to the gym around the time I would be there. I then told him that was cool and that he could yell at me if I decided to try and slack off. He was all for that. About two hours or so later I got a text from him saying he got called into work and wouldn't make it until 4:30pm, which is when I would be gone. So I told him that we would have to remedy this. That's when he stated he would have to start going into the gym later then. Oh score! Sounds like I might get to see him come Thursday after all since that's when I told him I would be there next. We will just have to see how it goes.

I ended up going online, finding my stories and copied everything I found to my computer. Then to three other places. My stories now are in four different spots and so I have plenty of back ups. I feel better knowing I have some of what I lost again, but not perfect. I am going to start editing again. I haven't done anything in a long while and one of my stories ended up grabbing my attention, so I am going to start. And I can't wait. I hate editing, but I love this story. So that kind of makes up for it. A little bit anyways.

Anyways off to study and/or crash.

~Dragon Eyes~

Ice Cream is Coming Out of My Pores

"I think ice cream is coming out of my pores!"
~Fabio~

Like I have said multiple times, there is never a dull moment at school. We were doing trainer/client role play and Fabio was being and obese client who LOVED ice cream. And that was the comment he came out with. I was laughing so hard I couldn't breathe. I am going to miss him when he leaves us all and goes back to Mass.

Today was a long day but I made it through and trained and rode my sister's ornery horse. Tomorrow I am so going to the gym. I need to go there and work my ass off. It is just needed at this point. Otherwise I might really kill Miss Thing. By the way, she wore a shirt three sizes too small for her and tiny ass shorts that left nothing to the imagination. I seriously wanted to vomit.

I think I'll read for a while seeing as I can't figure out any knitting project I want to take part in at the moment.

~Dragon Eyes~

You Look Run Over

Ziva: You look run over.
Tony: I think you mean run down.
~NCIS~

NCIS was have an "undies" marathon this afternoon, so I got to see a lot of it. I absolutely love Ziva and some of the things that come out of her mouth. The English language is not easy to learn, especially when it comes to all of our little sayings ans stuff that we use on a daily basis. So, needless to say, some of the things that come out of her mouth are pretty hysterical. This one killed me and there are seriously some days where I feel and look like I have been run over. Today I might have felt semi run over, but that was probably because I didn't end up going to sleep until like 4am. Oops on my part. It ended up taking me longer to get home in the snow from Kris's that I thought.

Tomorrow starts the last week of the semester. Thank goodness. I didn't think semester would ever end. It has just been so long and there has been so much work due that I feel like I am really going crazy. I probably am, but I like to tell myself I'm not.

I also decided that I don't know how to say no to people. When someone asks me to do something, I seriously can't say no. I just feel bad. But then I have too much to do and I spaz out and flail and then burn myself out. I just wish I had more time in the day and more of me. Maybe I can clone myself so I can go to school, train, go to the gym, go to the barn, and do all the school work and everything else I need to do. Sigh. It's never that simple.

Well I am going back to the oscars for a while. I tried to creatively write a little bit but ended up giving up. It just isn't there or something. Makes me rather sad.

~Dragon Eyes~

Literally Out of the Blue!

Every now and then something completely unexpected happens and you just can't help but sit there is stunned shock. That's what happened to me just now. I had been parading around the house in my prom dress all happy that it fit me better now than it had ever before and changing my profile picture on facebook. That was when all of a sudden I get a facebook chat box and low and behold, who was it? Kyle. Barn Kyle. Really really sexy barn Kyle who I haven't seen in forever much less talked to in forever and yet here he was asking me if anyone had been up to the barn lately. And even though the conversation was short I was still shocked. Apparently he is on break next week and is going to try and come out to the barn and do some roping. Interesting.

I just thought I should throw that one out there since it was just so random. And he is just that amazingly sexy! Yeah I have problems. But I like my problems!

Tonight I am going and hanging out with Kris again. I can't wait to see him since it seriously has been a week. I'm really excited to see him.

Well off to play with my phone on my computer and such. Should be interesting!

~Dragon Eyes~

Junk in Your Trunk Syndrome

Today was seriously the longest and most boring day at school ever. Both of my teachers were out so we had subs all day. In Kinesiology we pretty much worked on our muscle projects the entire time, so that was okay, but Joe's class was something else. He had us do more busy work stuff to the point where we were all just plain miserable and mostly half assed what we were doing. Thank goodness next week is the last week of the semester. I need this to be done and over with. But crazy as it is, next semester is like my last semester and then its off to externship. Oh. My. God. I can't even believe how fast everything has gone!! But that means I'll be able to get certified and get a job and get money!! YAY!!

I ended up going to the gym today, but of course Logun and I missed each other. I did send him a text stating I went there and didn't see him. He sent a message back laughing and saying he had been there for 5 hours and then had gone to work. Oh well. I am sure to run into him at some point there. We will have to see.

I think I watched television for the entire night. Say Yes to the Dress, DC Cupcakes and then Jersey Shore. Yup. SOO much television!

I also got the weirdest ass voicemail message from a gay man trying to get my to buy a magazine subscription and then take me out for a good time. SKEEVED OUT!!!!

~Dragon Eyes~

Train a Pirate with a Parrot, An Eye Patch and Rum

Interesting things happened at school today. Four of them were decently big enough for blog worthiness. Here we go.

Chino (to Ebony) - Tighten your ass!
Joe (who overheard) - CHINO!

The random discussion in General Pops class when Joe wasn't in the room:
Fabio - Next thing we know he's going to want contraindications for training a pirate. Eye patch!
Me - Don't forget the parrot and bottle of rum.
Fabio - Train him on the wobble board! Like the deck of a ship!
Me - Without upsetting the parrot or spilling the rum!

Now the next two kind of go hand in hand because if one didn't happen the other wouldn't have either. So I am SUPER glad for both:

Logun ended up coming into school today to visit and such. He found the six of us studying in our upper kinesiology class and was chatting with us from the doorway. He looks great (he was also in a sleeveless shirt and shorts, mind you). He is tall and thin and muscular. Just amazing. And still really cute. Can't help myself on that one! He was chatting with all of us and then all of a sudden looks straight at me and goes, "You haven't been at the gym in a while." Oh boy! I got called out! It's just been so hard for me to get there and stuff and we ended up playfully bantering back and forth a bit before he wandered off and we went back to studying. As soon as he was gone and out of ear shot, my teacher looks at me and whispers, "OMG He likes you! And he's cute!" It was hysterical! I went bright red and my classmates all had to pipe up and state why they also believed this was true. Every agreed that he is always pretty reserved and isn't a big talker, but would always talk a bunch to me as well as pick fun at me and stuff, but nothing mean, always playful. Then Fabio had to throw out there that the reason he knows I haven't been there is because he's been looking for me. Why else would he notice or care?? Still I was bright ass red.

When break came a few minutes later and after my teacher told me I better go and pursue this, I ended up running into him again and we chatted animatedly out in the hallway by the PFT lab. I told him that he should work out with me, since I find it easier with a partner or that he could train me and stuff and he was still telling me that I should come more often and stuff. He did seem rather impressed when Chino told him how much I can bench (the most out of any girl in the program!!!). I beamed. I like being strong as well as keeping up with the guys. We even ended up exchanging numbers.

Here is where the next part comes in. If I hadn't been standing there and talking to him, it never would have happened. It only made my day that much better. While I was talking to him, the Whore or Miss Thing as Chino calls her, came by and overheard me and Logun talking about Dunkin' Donuts (where he works) and all the crap food it has. That's when she had to put her two cents in and state that all I needed to do was eat cheetos and drink diet cherry coke. Without a single thought process, I turned my head, gave her a look and went, "yeah, no." Real curt. That's when she stated it worked for her, and I dismissed her even more quickly and went back to chatting with Logun. Chino stated later that she was probably jealous I was chatting with a hot guy while she was getting no attention. Too bad bitch.

Pretty soon, like all good things, it was time to say goodbye and go back to class. We walked down the hall together and he laughed and told me that another trainer at Gold's made fun of my dancing or bopping out to my music while on the treadmill. My teacher told me later that that was also a good sign because that meant he had been talking to others about me. I laughed and played it off well but stating I loved to dance and how that was just me and how I rolled. Then we parted ways with a "You better come to the gym more," by him and a, "definitely will," by me and then a "I'll talk to you later," by him. So now we just have to see where this goes. Even though I am still seeing Kris, it's another option for me since I am not in any sort of a relationship. Who knows. Maybe Logun is a better prospect at this point. Probably not, but life is funny how it works.

I am so going to the gym tomorrow. And more often for that matter!

After that I ended up training the girls after school, chatted a bunch with Carrie Ann about Logun and Miss Thing and then I went for a massage. After that I almost got kicked in the face by Beau and ate interesting stir fry. Still, all in all today was fabulous!!!

~Dragon Eyes~

No Muscle Hands on the Mayonnaise!

Today was an interesting day at school. It all began with tunnel vision and ended with fierce sexiness, beer and mac and cheese. All in all I think it was a pretty good day.

The day started off well. I got ready and got out the door early. My car didn't really have any serious frost on it and didn't require any scraping. I got to school at 8am and got a pretty decent parking space considering the fact that people seem to be coming at the crack of dawn to get a good place. I dropped off my lunch and went to the PFT lab. I walked in the room, saw the horny, white trash bitch, dropped all of my stuff at the table and went into instant tunnel vision. I turned up the music on the stereo and immediately went into tunnel vision, I must do calf raises before I punch bitch in face. And I proceeded to destroy my legs in the best way I knew how. Yup. It all went well, though I still had to listen to the whore ramble about how some random kid stared at her boobs for three days. I wonder why, sweetheart. She is just annoying, annoying, annoying and constantly makes me want punch her face in and/or want to break her in half. Oh well.

Chino knew I was pissy with the girl since my entire demeanor changed when I walked into the room and saw her. The usual hello wasn't really there. And I like Chino, but my hatred for her overshadows my love for my friend and classmate. Apparently, Aylin doesn't like her that much either and Shawn says it takes everything she has to not get up and demolish the girl, and she can definitely rip someone a new one. Being a mom of three kids, she knows how to handle anything. Chino was funny because he told me he found my fierce and wild new demeanor to be attractive. I never thought of it that way, but I did feel sexy and confident, so maybe that's something guys like. Works for me!

The rest of the day went well, though the stupid bitch was always around, but I just made sure to keep a pair of dumbbells in my hands or kept out of the room she was in to keep myself from doing something I might regret. Well, I wouldn't mind beating the crap out of her, but I wouldn't want to get kicked out of school.

My friend Erica made a goofy comment on my status on facebook that Kris had commented on. Basically the comment was about stalking his pictures to see who he was. Semi-embarrassing, but I played it off as best I could. He seemed cool with it, but text messaging and facebook don't have tone, so I can't tell. We are supposed to hang out again on Saturday, so I will just have to see what goes. But I am willing to bet he's peachy with it all. He just seems like that kind of guy.

I was told two interesting things today.

1. Chino - Laura, you need a Spanish man in your life!
Me - Where am I going to find one of those?
Chino - Where? Right here! Me and Fabio!!

2. Mom - Stop using your muscle hands on the mayonnaise jar! I can't ever get it open!!

~Dragon Eyes~

Massage Clinic is Stealing My Clients!!

"It's only an island if you look at it from the water."
~Brody in Jaws~

There is just something about that movie that always makes me happy and yet doesn't keep me from loving the ocean. I know what I am swimming with and I know the dangers and I am pretty okay with all of that. Besides, I think sharks are rather fascinating. Maybe that's just me.

I am so glad this day is over with. It just has been mad long and I am in need of Friday and sleep. I am seriously starting to get burnt out from school. Or maybe it's the fact that I have had Joe as a teacher for the last three terms in a row. Maybe that's the problem. All I know is I feel like I am going crazy, losing my mind, freaking out, and dying all at the same time. Cool, huh? I just wish I had more time to exercise. Then I would probably feel better with myself. I did lose another pound though! That's super exciting! 162! I haven't been this light in years and I look better. At least that's what I think. Pretty soon I'll make it into the 150s and that will be amazing!

Lunging my horse in side reins today was very enlightening. I started to the right which is his bad side. He fought with me and hung on me and was overall just not a good boy. When I asked him to canter, he would either jump into the wrong lead or jump (literally) into the right one and then stop after a stride and a half. When I had him go the other direction it was night and day. He was light and responsive and cantered like a perfect gentleman. Now I know that there truly is a problem to the right. Yay for having to fix/work on it.

So, I haven't really talked to Kris at all since the weekend. We exchanged like two text messages today and that's about it. I now go into my paranoid worry that it was something I did or something along those lines. I don't think so, but I don't know. I am just going to ride it out for now. Maybe this is just a fling and that's it and maybe it's supposed to be something more. Who knows. I'll just keep concentrating on everything I need to do around me and let the relationships and boys come later. I think I have said this to myself over and over again since Kyle and Mike. Oh well. Here we go again!

~Dragon Eyes~

The Wanderings of a Restless Mind

I think we have all been in this place. Lying in the darkness while our mind ceaselessly wanders from one thing to the next. Never settling on one thing long enough. Always moving to the next thing. And then it all stops, slamming to a halt on one thing and never let's go. Then you lie in bed in the utter silence of The darkness as your mind runs away with itself. And nothing you can do can stop it. You are just along for the ride wondering when it will end.

Yup. That where I am at at this very moment. Staring at the ceiling and letting my mind run away with itself. Again.

I wish there was a way to make it stop so I can just go to sleep and either dream good dreams or not dream at all. That would be ideal. Not dreaming at all. It would be easier that way. For lack of anything better, I am not flogging this to you on my phone in the darkness of my room. School draws closer and still I can shut my raging thoughts off so that sleep can come. No. Here I lie while my brain rules all.

I think of things I shouldn't be thinking about. People I shouldn't be with but want to be with and people I want to be with and should be with. I think of everything I have to do to make it through this week. When I will be able to exercise. When I am going to do stuff with my horses. When am I going to find a job and get money in my pocket. I feel as if my life is passing me by as I watch helplessly from the sidelines and you wonder why I can't sleep....

Yes. This is where I reside. In a frenzied uncontrolled chaos I call my mind. One voice clamors one thing and then another one pipes up and then my dual personalities go at it while I sit along for the ride. Sometimes I really hate being a gemini with my two personalities that are constantly at war with each other, vying for power and dominance. I would write and edit my stories to take my mind off things but they are unfortunately within reach but out of reach. So I will blog here instead until I fall asleep. Or try to. Or not to.

~Dragon Eyes~

I Think a Rock has More Fun than Me

Winter decided to return again with cold temperatures and snow. Snow!! Two inches of snow!! I really am so done with this. I want spring to come now. Oh well. I guess we have to deal with this weather a little while longer.

Today was another one of those lazy days. I finished my homework, went to the gym and rode my horse. I also finished Tucker Max's book. Now I have absolutely nothing to do. I could work on finishing my scarf but that involves work. Oh well.

Tomorrow I go to school and go back to my crazy, "I have no life" type of life. Boring.

~Dragon Eyes~

I'm Disneyland for Hookers??

Tucker Max always makes me laugh. I really am obsessed with his new book...and probably his old book as well. It just makes me laugh until I almost pee my pants. That's what I really love about it. Laughing is just so amazing.

I am finally spending a night here at home seeing as the last two nights I stayed out far too late. First the party and then hanging with Kris. If the two of us didn't watch, or sleep through, that third movie I would have gotten home earlier. Oh well. I still had a great time with him, so I guess that's all that matters, right??

I did a decent amount of knitting today as well as worked on, and mostly finished homework and cleaned my room slightly. It really is strange to not be going out tonight. It's almost like I've gone from doing everything to nothing. So strange! I am sure that will change next week, but for now, I just get to relax a little bit.

I watched Terminator 3 tonight. I haven't watched that movie in a while and I just discovered why. While I absolutely love that movie, it makes me sad at this moment in time. It is the one movie, without fail, that I can watch that makes me want to write so badly. I think back to one of my favorite, or absolute favorite story I have written. It doesn't help that I based it a little bit off of the movie, especially when it comes to John Conner's character. But, while I want to write badly, I just can't. All my stories, including the one I just mentioned is stuck on my broken flash drive. And it makes me ill to think that they are so close but so far away. Oh well. I guess I will try and take my mind off of things by reading some more of Tucker Max.

~Dragon Eyes~

She's Helpless. Let's Steal Her Underwear!!!

Last night was incredible! I had so much fun after not knowing what to expect at this party that I was invited to. I had a blast and so did everyone else. I was welcomed with open arms and, told at the end of the night that I needed to come to another one of these events with everyone. Seriously, I would love to come again and try out more of the stuff that was being done, but for my first time I did quite a bit. Molly was so happy that I came as well. She has been trying to get me to come for the longest time. She also told me that I was probably the only one out of our group, asides from Kelsey who was in New York, that would have liked it. Everyone else...well, it would just have been rather awkward and I can totally agree with her.

After the party ended at around midnight, a bunch of people left, but the rest of us (there were about 15) were starving and decided we needed food ASAP. So we all drove to New Britain Diner and got breakfast.

All around it was just a great time and I am glad I want, even though when I go there I had no idea what was going to happen. I took to it like a fish in water and never looked back. Tonight I am going to do my movie night with Kris because yesterday was taken up with the party, even though we both spent time with each other at the party. We like our together time with our movies. Pulp Fiction and Requiem for a Dream tonight.

Busy day today. Got to go to the barn and ride, jump on the treadmill and then maybe work on some homework before hanging out with him.

~Dragon Eyes~

I Smell Poop and Bad Decisions

Tucker Max makes me laugh no matter what mood I am in. His stories are so downright hilarious and ridiculous that you can't help but laugh. It just makes the world that much better.

I have finally made it to Thursday. It has been a long week, but I get the next four days off so that makes everything that much better. I am going to Olive Garden for lunch tomorrow and then to the bookstore to pick up the concluding novel of the time travel history novel I just finished and then going to Kris's party in the evening. I still have no idea what this party is going to be like, but he refuses to tell me and no one else will give me any insight. Oh well. I guess surprises are good for the soul.

I ended up running 15 minutes straight on the treadmill this afternoon. That was after I got a free massage. I discovered the right side of my body, which includes muscles and joints, is a hell of a lot stiffer than the left side and my right scapula does not retract as far back as my left. Next Thursday we are going to try and remedy this problem slightly.

Now back to Tucker Max's new book!!

~Dragon Eyes~

Do You Smell Silicone????

Now this is a story an a half! Okay, so at the beginning of the semester we got a whole bunch of new students. Some massage therapy kids and then a bunch of PFT ones. The PFT guys are awesome. Everyone is really friendly and personable and we all seem to get along very well with one another. Now, there is this one girl from the massage therapy group that I cannot stand. And not many others of my older group of PFTs can stand her either. She came in a week late and has been a mini thorn in my side since then. Who is she? White Trash Horny Bitch.

Why is she named as such?? Well, let me tell you. The first time I met her, well sort of met her since I don't know her real name (not that it matters much), she was wearing this skin tight pink top with incredible cleavage. And as Chino so delicately put it after we left the room, "Did you smell silicone?" Yup. I am 100% positive that this girls boobs are fake. And so do the rest of us. Seriously, no one can have natural boobs that look like hers.

She carries around this designer purse, which isn't even that nice, and doesn't dress in anything that isn't slightly provocative. Since she is the White Trash Horny Bitch, it's understandable. Now the rest is what I have overhead as well as others. Apparently she is married and has been for a year. I feel bad for this poor sucker. But then she proceeds to tell us that he is living far away somewhere in the South. The kid was smart after all to escape when it had the chance. But apparently all this trashy whore likes to talk about is sex, sex, and, wait for it, more sex. Yup. Horny Bitch.

She just happens to be one of those people that just instantly rubs you the wrong way when you walk into a room and then you fight with the urge to punch her in the face a few times to ensure maximum damage. Now, Miss P. was trying to find someone to tutor this girl because she isn't doing well in the class. Well, if she can in on time when the semester started and actually did work instead of gossip about fashion and sex, then maybe she wouldn't need it. She tried to get Chino to do it. He then proceeded to try and pawn her off on me. Hell no! Now I understand where he is coming from. As he told me, if she says anything to him, he said he would turn it around and give it right back to her and then would probably get in trouble for "sexual harassment." So I understand, but I am not taking her. I'd probably hit her or something.

Now, tomorrow is going to be interesting. She told Chino that she wants to come work out in the morning with him at like 8am. I am so going into school early tomorrow just so I can watch and or train her myself. And if I get to train her, it is going to be LOADS of fun. Because I get to torment and bring pain. YAY!! I cannot wait to see if she comes to workout tomorrow. I really hope she does. Me and Joann are going to have some pretty epic times!

Off to study for Kinesiology. A midterm with 26 muscles. Shoot me now...

~Dragon Eyes~

Trail Mix? You Have the Whole Trail in That Bag!

"You have bootleg trail mix!"
~Ebony~

All of us in our classes today where being kind of wild and rowdy. But we know how to fully entertain ourselves! Which might not always be a good thing, but still makes me laugh. Apparently Fabio and his trail mix got picked on and Jared couldn't stop with all the sexual innuendos and jokes. I love my classmates.

My back, which decided to have an injury flare up on Saturday, is still not feeling super great, but I am managing to make it through. I kind of couldn't participate in any big exercises we did in class but Joe was pretty understanding about it all for once. Shocking to me. I ended doing about an hour of cardio at the gym this afternoon and then some leg exercises at the barn, so I don't feel like a complete injured bum. I am hoping this is a short-lived thing, so I can get back to doing what I have been doing. I am seriously thinking that the size of my boobs have a big deal to play in all of this. They are just too big for my frame right now and I think they may be putting undue stress onto my back which just can't support it anymore. On a happier note though, I have not lost or gained any weight since last week. I am very proud of myself!

Today marks the one year anniversary of me getting into a relationship with Andrew. I look back on this day one year ago and cannot even believe how far I have come since then. I was in college, student teaching and being miserable. My back was still a right mess. I got into a really shitty relationship with Andrew while still fighting with the fact that I wanted to be with Mike, but knew I couldn't. I was even starting to spiral into my clinical depressed phase while not having great times living in lowrise with my crazy roommates. All in all it was a very bad mix for me, which ended up leading to major issues. Happy to say, I can look back on it all and see the incredible improvements. It's just amazing, this feeling. Must keep going strong!

Even though I keep forgetting to blog and mention things, but I ended up hanging out with Kris last night. We watched 300 and just goofed around and such, basically still feeling each other out. We seem to connect well and have a bunch of things in common. Who knows? I am just going with the flow and seeing what will happen.

~Dragon Eyes~

The Merry Go Round Broke Down

"Do you mean to tell me you could have taken your hand out of those cuffs at any time?"
"No, only when it was funny!"
~Valiant and Roger Rabbit~

So I have been doing some serious neglecting of blogging as of late. No idea why I have been, but apparently it just hasn't really been on the top of my priority list as of late. It doesn't help that I have been mad busy and have not being getting along with my parents so well. And I hardly spent much time at my house. That could have something to do with it.

I have been running around all over the place. Dinner with the rock climbing crew, out on the town with my classmates and hanging with Kris. That's what I have been doing.

Now I forgot to mention this, but I have been officially blogging for over a year now. That is a long time. My life was a whole lot different a year ago, so it is incredible to me, when I look back, to see how much better off I am now. I hope I can keep working on that and everything will be better.

Tomorrow is Mistress Day. I am going to feel sexy and badass for the day.

~Dragon Eyes~

Excuse Me While I Pick Up My Humerus...

There is never a moment in my kinesiology class that I don't love. The teacher is hysterical and my classmates are even more so. Today we were discussing out rotator cuff muscles and the origin and insertions of all the muscles and they all inserted on the humerus and keep the humerus from flying off of our bodies. If not..."Please excuse me while I pick up my humerus." It would mos def be something pretty hysterical to witness.

Training today went really well. I did circuits with the girls and they loved it. I even got into spotting a little bit more than I normally am. I guess that's because all I can see is Joe and his scariness and it makes me do even more. I still think nothing is good enough for that man. I wish I knew what he wanted and if I could get even a small compliment. Maybe that would make me feel like I am actually doing good instead of feeling like I am floating out in space somewhere not doing well. I have to be doing okay because Carrie Ann says so and so do the girls and other people who I have trained who are mostly my classmates. I guess I am doing okay. I just wish Joe could see that instead of staring and telling me I am not doing enough. GAH!

Tomorrow I am getting a massage. It's a class assignment. Isn't that the coolest assignment ever? I think so. I get pampered for an hour. Yup. It doesn't get any better than that!

Kris and I are working on finding another movie night. Star Wars and Boondock Saints. And maybe something else. Who knows!

~Dragon Eyes~

Superbowl Sunday

Packers vs. Steelers

What an excellent game! It was a very close game and the Packers struck first, but the Steelers fought back hard, but couldn't hold on to win it. While I was sad the Steelers lost, it was still an excellent game and one I am glad I got to see. I was invited to Reeni's superbowl party at her house, but after being out all weekend, I feigned illness to get out of going. I really didn't want to go and have to deal with drunkeness. It really is starting to get really old for me. An occasional drink is great. I am good with casual drinking, but whenever Reeni and Jeanette drink together it is a lot. And I really don't like to deal with that. Especially since Jeanette can get really annoying really fast. Oh well. I settled with being at home watching the game and texting Kris.

I ended up hanging out with him on Friday night. We ended up watching two of the three Star Wars movies (the originals) and ate Chinese food and cuddled. I can't wait to hang out with him again and see what goes. I think he was really expecting a kiss from me on Friday, but I move slow and I am shy, so this next time around I'll probably be all set up to do just that.

On Saturday I ended up hanging out with Jocelyn. We went to out usual Denny's spot for dinner and then we went back to her house for chatting and playing an awesomely close game of Phase 10. I actually beat her for once so that was epic! But we talked about our lives, and boys, and the BWWs groups and boys, and Kyle, and boys. Yup. I think I might go out to Buffalo Wild Wings some point soon with her to see everyone. I am not going to lie. I am mad nervous about that and about seeing Kyle, but I miss everyone, so I am going to do it for them and not him. We will just have to see.

Off to bed. Hopefully we won't have school on Friday this week since I believe I am going out with all of the PFTs on Thursday. So please let there be no snow to cancel school!!!

~Dragon Eyes~

Ice Cristacles

This is a quick entry but I just want to say that I am off to Kris's house for movie night. We shall see how everything goes, but the two of us seem pretty cool with each other so I am excited.

~Dragon Eyes~